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Was It A Smart Move?

Yesterday I wrote:

had to decide between becoming a professional juggler or a computer programmer (I chose the latter which was probably smart given the financial security I now enjoy, even if it meant losing my inner artist and passion for some forty years).

And I realised I fell for the trap.

How do I know I wouldn't have financial security now if I'd chosen to be a professional juggler? The odds are possibly lower but statistics and individual experience are completely unrelated (as policy-makers would be wise to notice).

As I re-read the sentence "even if it meant losing my inner artist and passion for some forty years" I realise what that decision has really cost me.

We can't possibly know if our decisions will have good or bad outcomes—read The old man lost his horse for a great rendition of this wisdom—and so we can only make our best guess at any time.

I've found that following the guidance of the universe / instinct / God / source / whatever you want to call it has made my decision-making easier (and less exhausting) and it has been working out okay so far. In fact, I'd go as far as to say that the universe has an uncanny knack of supporting me when I trust my intuition.

"Should" I have become a programmer instead of a professional juggler? Well, the question is moot because I did become a programmer instead of a professional juggler.

Maybe I wasn't ready. Maybe I am now. (Ok, not to be a juggler, but to be a film-maker and documentary journalist... yes, that's a nice little project that's just starting up in my world... more soon!)

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